Ā I (25F) am marrying my FiancĆ© (28M) in May and I am highly considering not inviting my mom to our wedding.
Let me give a little background. My mother and grandmother flew across the country to go wedding dress shopping with me, my friends and future MIL last February. Months leading up to this, I was calling my dad (my parents are divorced) explaining to him how nervous I was for my mom to join us dress shopping because she has a tendency to blow things up that are not going her way.
When she arrived with my grandmother, She seemed in great spirits. The first day of dress shopping, we had two appointments and I actually found my dress at the first shop. At the first appointment my mother kept trying to bring me princess cut dresses, but I explained to her that when scheduling the appointments I had filled out surveys and picked out dresses from their website to try on. I also explained that the dresses were nice, but I never imagined myself wearing a princess cut dress on my wedding day.
During the second appointment, I had felt like I had already found my dress so I gave in and tried on the dresses my mother wanted. A few of them she really liked, but once again I stated that I do not want to wear a princess cut dress to my wedding. I could tell she was getting frustrated, so I told her they had Mother of the Bride dresses there and she should try some on since I felt pretty committed to the dress at the last shop.
On the second day, my mom stated that she wanted to take my friends, grandma, MIL and I to a nice brunch before the last dress appointment. On our way to breakfast, the dress store called me saying they had double booked, but could get me in an hour earlier. So, I pivoted our breakfast plans to a little cafe close to the dress shop so we could still get a quick bite before the appointment.
Once arriving at the appointment, my mother pulled me aside while we were all walking in and said "I guess I will keep my F'ing mouth shut since nothing I say seems to be right" I calmly asked her what she was talking about and she said that I had "turned down every idea she had and that my behavior was an embarrassment in front of my future MIL". I asked my mom what I had specifically said as I was truly confused and upset as she knew I had been trying to make a good impression on my MIL. I apologized if I had made her feel that way as it was not my intention. She said that "this is a big day for her too and we couldn't even go to a nice brunch spot like she wanted."
I then walked into the dress store, tried on a dress and began to sob. I think people thought I was crying because I loved the dress, but I was upset because I felt like my mothers timing for yelling at me was intentional.
Fast forward to later that day, I had scheduled an appointment to pick up the dress I had found at the very first store from the day before. My friends had left and my mother, MIL and grandmother headed to the store. My mother sat on her phone in the dress store and did not look up once. Even when I said "yes to the dress". I began trying on veils and my MIL asked my mother's opinion and my mother said loudly "it doesn't matter what I think" and kept scrolling.
After buying my dress we met my fiancƩ for dinner and my mother kept making passive aggressive comments in conversation like "I am going to a nice brunch tomorrow since I haven't gotten to this whole trip" and "I am not going to say sorry for things I am not sorry for".
I had had it at this point. After dinner, I was silent in the car and we dropped her off at her airbnb with my grandmother. I blocked her on everything and cut her out.
I did not talk to my mom for about 7 months, even though my grandmother continuously tried to guilt trip me and told me that it was stressing her out which is bad for her health.
I reached out to my friends, grandmother and MIL after dress shopping asking if I had said anything mean or offensive during the time my mother was in town and none of them could think of a single conversation where I was rude.
During this time, I did a lot of reflection on my relationship with my mom and began to realize this was a repeating pattern. She had made me cry before prom, she made my graduation from high school and design school about her divorce, and made my cross country move about her. I reached out to family members back home and they told me stories about events I could not attend- baby showers, bridal showers, birthdays etc. and said my mother had blown up at those too.
Last week, I called my mom for the first time and she apologized for her timing when it came to yelling at me, but not for anything else. She then said that it was also her day that was ruined, as wedding dress shopping was also a big day for her and my grandmother.
I feel like I am in a lose lose situation here as I want to be able to enjoy my wedding and not have my mom blow up like she has at many occasions in the past, but I also feel like if I do not invite her she will hold it over my head for the rest of my life. AITA for not inviting my mom to my wedding?